Jijivisha

Thousands of faces,
Of friends there were no traces.
Alone throughout walked she,
Just for a friend carved she.
She had set her eyes in search,
An angel came, as if from the church.
He walked with her
He talked with her
He fought with her
He laughed with her
He played with her
He cried with her
Lonliness had now surrendered
He had now become her world
She knew he’s always there
No matter what’s the atmosphere.
Better than a friendship it was, 
More dreamy than a relationship it was.
The bond was undefined
To them it was confined.

My soul, in the midsts of this fake world,
I had lost you.
My body, in search of an apt mask left,
Leaving behind you.
You preserved my heart
You nourished my thoughts
You nurtured my uniqueness
You behold every bit of real me
I searched for a ray,
In the bright materialized lights.
I am sorry, I didn’t hear you
In those high decibels
I am sorry, I didn’t see you
In that sheen of citylights
I am sorry, I didn’t feel you
In the numbness of those grasses
I am sorry, I had lost you
I am glad, I have found you
I promise i won’t leave you
All i can say is ,Dear soul
I love YOU!!

I don’t know what it is,

The world seems an end

I see myself standing at a crossroad

My people call me from one end

My family calls from the other

opportunities open at one end

And happiness comes from the other

It is all so blur

It is all so still

It is all so futile

My feelings, I ain’t able to concile

Cheers knock at my door

But I am reluctant to open the door

Happiness dances in front of my eyes

But I am reluctant to open my eyes

There’s something inside

There’s something hidden

All I see is not sorrow

All I see is not pain

But there’s a resistance to that relief

There’s a reluctance to that shade

This resistance is not known

And I know it resides within me

I really don’t know what it is

But my world has come to an end…..

you say, he is all around.
you say,his fragrance that surround.
you say, his voice echoes in ear.
you say, this has been since past one year.

you say, his memories never leave you.
you say, you fumble when he sees you.
you say, you’d die if he leaves you.
you say, you want him all around you.

you say, your heart can’t resist him
you say, you get an urge to talk to him.
you say, you can’t step away from him.
you say, you are all into him.

you say, on the first page of your book,
he appears.
you say, in your daily notes,
he appears.
you say, in your project files ,
he appears.
you say, in your tution notebooks,
he appears.

you say, you try hard to forget him.
you say, you try hard to leave him.
you say, you try hard not to think of him
you say, you try hard not to hear that voice of him.

you say, you make an effort.
you say, you try to concentrate.
you say, you try to shift your focus.
you say, you really make an effort.

girl I know, this is difficult.
girl I know, your situation.
girl I know, your priorities.
girl I know, your efforts.
girl I know, you try.
but your heart makes you cry.

A frame of wood,It may seem to the world. But I see a silent listener. It listens to the old talks of gdandma-grandpa. It is a silent listener to their love-making memories.
A piece of ulility,It may seem to the world.But I see a preserver, a protector to those l’il ants which live in calm under its shade. To me it seems to be a nurturer.
A wooden structure, It may seem to the world. But I see a playful platform for young angels.
A piece of wood,It may seem to the world.But I see a reliever to the pedestrians. Their sigh of relief numbs me.
A lifeless object, It may seem to the world. But it is the one who lends an ear to my grievances. It listens to me without any interruptions,without any suggestions.

see yourself as I , your perspective will change

They say They EXPECT,

They look at me with dreams in their eyes.

The Faith they have,

is my Motivation.

The Hope they have,

is my Inspiration.

But Yes!!

It SCARES me sometime.

I Fear their EXPECTATIONS.

If not been able to live up to them,

I Fear to face their

shattered faces.

I Fear to lose those

hopeful traces.

though,

I work only to fulfill the Dreams in

their eyes.

I still fear their EXPECTATIONS.

I say

“they inspire me, motivate me”

But at the same time,

They BURDEN me, SCARE me!!

YES !! I still Fear EXPECTATIONS

-radhika

“me in your dreams” said he

laughed & giggled she,went off to sleep

a sleepess night faced she,

a “dilemma” faced she.

The “mind” said , just a BEST FRIEND

The  “heart” carved for more than a friend”

mind:”stop this right away!”

heart:”trying, but I’m falling day by day”

mind:”But he is your BEST FRIEND, as you say”

heart:”yes! he was, he is, he will. no idea what happened today!”

mind:”you adore him as a BEST FRIEND , weather you are near or you are away.”

heart:”yes! I did, I should, I will. but can’t stop this right away”

mind:”you take some time girl ,I say”

heart:”Don’t need any time. rubbish was all I thought all this while. know I you are right.I’il adore him as my BEST FRIEND, the way i have done all this while.”

heart is just so difficult to handle. It sways like a feather in air.

Thank you! my mind,

I remember my bond,

I remember my friend.

now all I carve for,is this PRECIOUS BOND.

as long as……

(happy now! :))

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Bloom of a flower,

is the beginning of a new life.

sand in an oyester,

is the beginning of a precious pearl.

An Idea,

is the beginning of a new story.

A warrior’s birth,

is the beginning of a new era.

An effort made,

is the beginning of a new journey.

so,here HER journey begins………

-radhika